Hi guys,

I don’t really have anything to report this week.  It’s been a very emotional week for me and I have had zero focus.  I don’t usually discuss politics openly, but I have to say how truly saddened, angry, frustrated, worried, scared and embarrassed by what has happened in our country during this last week and who we, the people have elected to represent this country.  HE IS NOT MY PRESIDENT!

Probably one of the most difficult things, I have ever had to do in my life, was the morning after the election.  I had to face my children and portray strength and try to put on that game face and make like everything was okay.  FAIL!  How the fuck am I supposed to look at my gay son and tell him that everything is going to be okay?  I can’t, because it’s not!  How am I supposed to look my daughter in the face and reassure her that everything women have worked hard for and have fought to achieve over the years will keep moving forward?  I can’t, because those things are in jeopardy.

Everything just feels like one big uncertain mess this week.  My house has been divided on certain topics and it feels like it’s been ripping my family apart.  What the fuck happened?  I have also realized this last week that I am completely oblivious when it come to understanding the interworking of politics and how the system works (or doesn’t work).  Shame on me!  I have made it a personal goal of mine to learn more, to listen, observe and speak out when I don’t agree.

It’s been a very sad and emotional week. I have slowly been getting a bit of my groove back and got to spend some time with my girls this weekend and got some fresh ocean air today.  I’m mentally starting to feel a little better, but just not there yet.  I’m going to keep working towards my goals this week and try to hang in there.

To all of my friends, family and colleagues of the LBGTQ community, different skin colors, different countries and religions.  I love you all, I am here for you, I will stand by you ALWAYS.  If you need some one to just sit and listen, I am here.  If you need a hug or a shoulder to cry on, hit me up.  I won’t tell you to calm down, I won’t tell you that you are right or wrong, I won’t tell you everything will work out and be okay, I will just be there for you.  Please be careful out there and stay safe!

Okay end rant.  Here are the goals for the week:

Week 18 Goals

  • Stay hydrated: 180 ounces per day
  • Log all of my food every day
  • Maintain a 500 calorie deficit every day
  • 10,000 steps per day
  • Get up and move: Hit my Fitbit 250 steps per hour from 7am to 7pm
  • Meditate 4 days per week
  • Reflect on my goals every day
  • Post in my Facebook groups every day
  • One adventure day per week
  • Lose 1 pound per week

Be safe everyone!